18 March 2023

an aside/apocalyptic emptiness en masse/side notes

this personal search; this explorative artist’s journey; the ‘pilgrimage’ first started a long time ago for me ….which forced me as an artist to require this outlet…. to deal with the emotional weight of how isolated I felt from the rest of this world…. who seemed wholly unconscious of —I believe ….what has become the present reality

I felt it very young and growing up—a suffocating emptiness that there was no consciousness at all; that everyone is as Hume suggested

I think it was from the apocalyptic sense which quietly germinated in this terror of an awareness of meaninglessness

that lead me on this headless horseman journey 

you question :

do I look for meaning where there is none

I guess that my devil’s advocate reply must be

what if there is meaning where no one has bothered to see  ….?

the subcategories are part of what supports my personal searches for meaning and purpose; 

That is Electra’s dictionary

and these ….karma; dna memory theory; the evolution of the soul and the universal consciousness ….are the flags 

so, if you argue there is no meaning and I am naive to search 

I can only reply that, you can have that opinion in your world; in the world that I live in there is….and if that means to you that I am a lunatic, so be it, because this is my dictionary and I define myself and I don’t live in your world



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