the Man With the Vampire Eyes/ScandiNoir; Electra’s dictionary

17 June 2026

apokalýptískt tómleika.

manstu?

Ég sakna þín líka

Ég sakna líka athugasemda þinna

of ships & apocalyptic times Noir Vampires we are

I find I get lost in a room within.

I do not know for how long it seems I have been wandering; like a droughted sponge that is never past parched no matter if it swims under a waterfall

it still comes up thirsty ….this need

to wish to wash clear; tabula rosa ….power wash away all nebulous dust and mist then wind swept off all dew

It would not be right to walk into some new ….scene ….where all previous ones were all the mistakes —to not at first really clear out all the bugs squashed dead in the corner crevices where thoughts decay.

Days to myself in private solitude and keep counsel only to myself

Do I trust myself …. I must prove that I can ….i find —like going down allegorical corridors and opening up doors; the catacombs ….the dungeons of thoughts; Jörn’s dungeon ….it is a good place to go. It is fail proof. No one can get in. This is where I go. A room in my mind.

Before I want to trust anyone or believe the Folkmoot story, I need to wrap within this cocoon built within of iron stronger than anything in the universe. Like a sleeping vampire. To go within a crypt ….only once there through scrying dialogues which deliver me to a cleared path ….

can I face either the revival venom of a vampire’s breath or the serenity of being reconciled to the devoutness of my personal truths and alas know it is more than any material wealth

I get lost here in this room with my back turned away from the monitors

Do I think of life ? life’s meaning ….. time ….wasted time; years wasted ….but they never are really wasted —that is the riddle ….

I do not wish to step out there from my temple until I appreciate every scab and scar and also too, every happy and quiet personal moment ….when I forgot to feel guilty for being lazy….when the automatic scheduled demands are gone —there….her; that one….that is ….the one to step out again for nothing less than my own long lost Andreas and Hanna from my long lost life

I stay in the dungeons a long while to think, far from the madness of this crowded world

I don’t choose to let down the portcullis and consider a walk through the catacombs humming Jim Morrison’s Soft Parade but thinking of his Crystal Ship

https://youtu.be/4YWPhmduSDQ?is=6nl5xrTMND9OHw6w

15 June 2026

the path upon the grounded Celf

emotionally dangerous people are the ones that intentionally destabilize you

the people of whom destabilize you are emotionally dangerous to you

harmful ….

with those, we take on lessons we do not need at all

we do not need the derailing that takes you so far off your true path

it is best to be the friend you need to yourself

it is best to keep upon your road to the center of the Celf

to know your truest north within

….tune out the rest

take me as I am ….your inner self knows ….i take me as I am —just focus within; they do not matter to your path….their opinions weigh little to the Celf

your mantra: I do not need emotionally dangerous people who suck you in at first with generous kindness then work to destabilize you by making you believe that you need them more than your truest Celf

https://youtu.be/lf6vCjtaV1k?is=0rO-ejN3aEtsqE_A

don’t fall on me