Of a haunting pirate

“And she calls to him:

‘Let the waste
Cross the ancient trails to you
Far out
Beneath the sorrow clouds

Let them taste
The bitter, lost mistake of you
Let them cry out
Through your rusted scars....”

—lyrics by Billy Corgan from the song ‘the Tale of Dusty and Pistle Pete’ by the Smashing Pumpkins from the album ‘Adore’


As I watch the moon tonight I think of Raoul and the burden of his soul

why should it carry through life times.....

the day that the pirate killed her mother happened two summers before the day he saw Elan on the beach and followed her to the market

even though she had seen it happen that day she did not know it was the man who faced her that day at the market.... she had been up on the hill overlooking the beach because her mother told her to run

and then she saw it happen from the distance

he had seen the girl running .... but it was not Raoul who butchered Elan’s mother. It was because it made him remember what befell his own family, that he stepped in and killed the woman quick to end her slow torture by the men as she had fought back.

But it had been the heavy pendant crescent moon that she wore made of silver that made him later recall the woman he had killed because ....he took it from her. 

When he discovered on the boat that Elan wore the same kind of crescent moon that had been hidden within the folds of her woad blue robes, he knew a moment of guilt and shame

In this way we may begin to understand the weight of this burden he must have then felt. And how it must have been such a guilt to germinate within him such a heavy sense of anguish of responsibility; 

a kind of debt

which could carry within a soul long through many lifetimes 


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