I have been thinking about such weird things …. you know, watching the mushroom cloud —i was thinking about my high school stalker 

….the Maryland trauma —how it fits with today’s criteria of “normal” so, whatever it impacted me is irrelevant but —anyway, in my reality … the bait and switch move; date rape and to add insult upon injury he said, “you’ll go to a hair dresser and I’ll tell them how I want you to look”

We were sitting on the porch 

I began to hyperventilate 

He was red faced. Drinking. 

He said, 

“and your clothes ….why do you wear such odd colors?”

that is when I panicked and bailed out 

   I bailed out which sadly, pathetically only amounted to a freaked out —I’d been duped and no one to turn to