messenger of the gods

Within the perimeter I’ve skirted my issues

using veiled and curtailed words

You see, these memories of that man appeared to me in times when I was most lost

As I was often on the brink


the ledge

I would remember him

It always called me down off the ledge

My thoughts are so different

So odd from most people

I don’t know where this comes from but I never have fit comfortably with society because I am somewhere else —coming from somewhere.....

 else

And so 

 it was when I started reading his words that— I went to the library to check out a book he wrote


.... suddenly I realized why I did not fit the family I was in. The school room; the country, etc etc


It was so strange

it was so strange to connect with a mind I finally understood; the patterns of thoughts; the flow; the philosophies and social concerns but most the value of why the humanities are at the core of evolutionary civilization that .... makes or breaks extinction

so strange to hear the echo within a conscious place

And just feel bereft of some unnameable loss

I think of the smeden who was too late for the girl

I think of the darkness in his pale Nordic eyes .... the vampire who dies a million deaths and never dies

who carries the burden of loss

But I think of the purpose of this emotion—an emotion that is not wished for but instead chases and haunts in some tucked away inner place

In terms of what archeologists discover written on caveman walls

This message is at the driving center of existence whether anyone is willing to ponder existence or not— it is there anyway

and written on the caveman walls

like a mural of a wave —and overwhelming emotion

Maybe the vampire is the only voice because he holds all the abject memories

I do believe art is one continuous conversation through time and all the threads are valuable like what we find in a DNA helix