28 March 2019

Orpheus JM muse chronicles: Scene 1 of The Pirate with the Vampire Eyes parallel drama




It is a market scene by a port circa 870’s

The one known as the Pirate With the Vampire Eyes is seen leaving the long boat and he walks to the market to trade his hides

He carries his crafted swords he forged in a thick sack he carries on his back.

His long, gold-blond hair is caught back and tied in a leather cord and he walks with a proud and energetic gait up the beach to the market among a group that leaves with him off his ship

He is seen walking as the scene of the market’s activities fill the screen

The camera shot pulls back to cover the scope and then capture the scene of when the Pirate we shall call “Raoul” first lays eyes upon the Girl, whom shall be called “Elan”

He is dressed in warrior clothes and armor

Now in profile of Raoul watching her with her father. Her father is wearing the dark blue woad robes of a Druid medicine man. He is a healer and he is also a soothsayer. He travels from port to port with his daughter. There is a scrying bowl on a wood table made of crystal and jars of herbs and teas. There is also a small harp which he now picks up to play, sending his daughter out to search the beach for moonstones

Father: It is low tide now, Elan (his eyes peer at the sky)

Elan (wears a long dark blue woad dyed robe, the hood covers her head except for long red locks that escape it; she wears a pendant that falls to her waist that is a heavy silver crescent moon; bows to her father): yes father

Father: don’t forget to si—

Elan: to sing the incant; yes I know, Father

Father: To the four winds

Elan ignores him and picks up her basket and as she does she begins to hum the incant but this is when she sees Raoul and she stops suddenly stunned by him

In profile the two on the screen in silhouette

In slow motion she drops her basket. It rolls right to him. He grins at her as his eyes openly expose more than a decent interest in her. She reacts at first with fear by suddenly jumping back from him. But she then stops as if magnetically pulled to stare back at him.

He picks up her basket and hands it to her. She stares and slowly takes it from him. Bends in a curtsy and rushes quickly towards the direction through the market that leads to the beach

He watches and then looks towards the stall where he saw her come from. Raoul narrows his eyes on the father thoughtfully before he slowly walks towards the stall

14 March 2019

Jörn; Beth entry Film Noir




Of course, I realize, it is madness to believe that I could outrun Jörn—but I don’t think, I just act and the impulse is purely fight or flight

Jörn easily overtakes me,
“where do you think you’re running to, min lilla duva?”

His eyes look like ice when I am stopped by his grip upon the shoulder of my coat as he turns me around; they blaze with a kind of electrical charge that seems to spark and for a second there I forget where we are; when we are

I am reminded of the eyes from ‘the dream’ ....the pirate on the boat from across the sea

I get a chill that stops me to stare into them. I am stood frozen by them on the spot. This is when he drops his hand from my shoulder and he tilts his head to one side to stare into my eyes.... and

I see the smeden there inside and this is what I trust

This unreasonable feeling. I just do

....somehow....

I don’t know why....I do.... somehow—I don’t know why

“Where are you running to?” he asks me now in repeat. His voice cracks into a tone changed to one that almost pleads as his ageless vampire eyes....implore

with unspoken words that I don’t yet comprehend but strangely.... believe

I see a veil lift from within the gray and he says as if reading me through my eyes,
“you think that you can’t trust me—“ but he stops himself from saying more

Yes and..... yet—I don’t know if that is really what I feel. Not fully

“What it makes me fear is that you will turn out to be another one who only .... came into my life with preconceived ulterior motives,” I tell him

“Like Nigel and Eliot....”

“Like everyone turns out to be.... “ I say this as I think about the last few years of my life and all the users who pretended friendship when they had other uses of me in mind, so I say,

“tell me now, Jörn, did you set all of this up? Everything that’s happened? Our meeting that day?”

“Are you serious?” he stares at me with a look of deep hurt, “Do you really not trust me, min lilla duva? All the dreams? The memories we —both—share....? Do you think all that stuff with Gerald was ‘bullshit’; part of some cover? Do you believe I have such vile scruples?”

13 March 2019

‘Jörn Film Noir’ foreshadowing



Because he drives I sit in silence, even as he talks .... my thoughts are working

Jörn talks about his mother when I ask him how the surgery went, saying,
“it was not a big deal, everyone made more of it than necessary— we at least all had a family reunion—we’re talking about getting together at the summer place....”

Still my thoughts....

“You met with your Dutch friend....” I stare without seeing what I look at, staring inward

I feel him turn to me but I I don’t look

“Why would you do that?” I ask

I listen for anything he may give away

It feels like too long before I hear him sigh,
“I guess I was curious to know—the off chance there could be a connection.”

I whisper,
“To your Dutch spy friend? bullshit, Jörn.”

I don’t even move and just stare ahead. I consider why I had the impulse to pick him up at the airport after his dropped hints of the details of his flight

After awhile he sighs again,
“what are you suggesting?”

“I don’t know.... it just seems too convenient to me,” I say in a whisper

“What does?”

“All of it.”

He pulls the car off the road to a rest stop area. The car hardly stops when I jump out

But I don’t run towards the building there. Instead I run anywhere else

08 March 2019

messenger of the gods



Within the perimeter I’ve skirted my issues

using veiled and curtailed words

You see, these memories of that man appeared to me in times when I was most lost

As I was often on the brink


the ledge

I would remember him

It always called me down off the ledge

My thoughts are so different

So odd from most people

I don’t know where this comes from but I never have fit comfortably with society because I am somewhere else —coming from somewhere.....

 else


And so 
 it was when I started reading his words that— I went to the library to check out a book he wrote


.... suddenly I realized why I did not fit the family I was in. The school room; the country, etc etc


It was so strange

it was so strange to connect with a mind I finally understood; the patterns of thoughts; the flow; the philosophies and social concerns but most the value of why the humanities are at the core of evolutionary civilization that .... makes or breaks extinction

so strange to hear the echo within a conscious place

And just feel bereft of some unnameable loss

I think of the smeden who was too late for the girl

I think of the darkness in his pale Nordic eyes .... the vampire who dies a million deaths and never dies

who carries the burden of loss

But I think of the purpose of this emotion—an emotion that is not wished for but instead chases and haunts in some tucked away inner place

In terms of what archeologists discover written on caveman walls

This message is at the driving center of existence whether anyone is willing to ponder existence or not— it is there anyway

and written on the caveman walls

like a mural of a wave —and overwhelming emotion

Maybe the vampire is the only voice because he holds all the abject memories

I do believe art is one continuous conversation through time and all the threads are valuable like what we find in a DNA helix