my vampire diaries

I am not a movie star. Sometimes I just find the strangest experiences. In particular because, I go to extremes to avoid notice. I wear black or camouflage colors; boring neutrals and clothes slightly too big to keep creep-o’s from ogling; it’s honestly rather sad and pathetic how much time and energy I put into trying to stealth my way around town and it’s wherever I go, every out of the way place I have fled to—this awkward thing. A total stranger in the elevator before was standing behind me and I feel her touching my hair ….i hear her say to the man next to her, “look at the red….” as she tugged at the curl (it’s gotten quite long now) I felt it spring as she played with it ….awkward ….so I got out and pretended I didn’t notice and went my way — but other things ….too …. what is it about me ? I was walking down the Main Street here last week and a local was driving past me…. he almost rear ended another car because he was staring at me— I heard the tires screeching and I was scared he was dead. I should keep inside—it’s so awkward ….it is such a dear little town. I love that it is so small. But it seems those small towns create their own celebrities; the mystery nobody knows because they know each other so well, so who is that girl? Gosh, I’d hate to disappoint them, I’m just an (old) odd ball artist from a cast off notorious dad who wound up crashing here with my vampire diaries and the man with the vampire eyes 

do I mind being Jörn’s ….? I am me, I am mine—but I don’t blame him for not being able to forget me ….what is it with men when they are around me—are they really so bereft of any eye candy….i don’t get it. And as I ponder this it becomes so funny and truly something to get a good laugh over. I need to laugh about this. Should I tell Jörn? No way. A girl needs her secrets no matter how old. Shit, never mind launching ships, I get guys to crash cars staring at me in my grungy shirt and biker shorts sweating and no doubt my hair extra wild in the sun despite the effort to tame it. Next move is to hide for a few weeks. They will wonder and then I’ll show up like Superman least when they expect it 

I don’t even need to be a vampire