the enormity of life.and loss.and how fleeting it is becomes too much.becomes too much.it goes to the quick and ….there’s just the echo 

I’ve never really subscribed to the idea that crystals have properties of particular powers. Not the way occultists do 

I should, because I do feel the sense of a presence on physical objects if something emotional happened recently around the object or was touched by a person who felt things intensely. 

The idea of crystals though? They are pretty. Some I am more drawn to than others. But actual power? No—it seems a stretch. I always thought. But now —I decided to try an experiment with one. The only one I’m drawn to most, of course, the moonstone. I don’t know why but I’ve kept mine saved and unworn since I got it, as if saving it. 

My moonstone ring. I usually put it on and then soon after just take it off. It seems to not have belonged to my life. What does it say about moonstones as powers of properties? What does it do? The experts say: Protection, healing and —enhances intuition. They say if you wear it continually, even shower and sleep with it on, you will bond with the energy the best and modify your psychic energy.

So…. all day today it’s been wild and strange “coincidences” of guessing things were happening at the exact time. Do I feel different? It’s still on. Yes.

just views from Moses’ mountain

What do you suppose were going on within the minds of the common surfs of the times of Henry VIII? While upper-crust arrived to remind them what they didn’t get, the ones of whom managed to survive all right—as the self evidence everywhere supports, but besides, someone was minding the shops; the baker; the butcher; the candlestick maker ….who would have quietly and humbly drew breaths of relief—for instance, the daughters of the shop keeper— rather be modest and humble than a queen without her head. But to abide by the law of a country knowing the leader would do this to his own wife. 

What do you suppose were going on within the minds of the common surfs of the times of Henry VIII?

How civilized is our leader! We should be good citizens and be happy to obey his every law.

I know, it’s rather silly to believe anyone thinks that a leader is not in it for himself; it’s very naive but then it’s too tedious to commit to this harsh realization —corrupt?no!!! yeah, I’ll obey your law, for sure as it keeps baby squirrels off the road but ….

they had to be counting the days of his doom.that rancid leg. any possible boar hunt. a wife to castrate him in his sleep and leave him there to drain; a chef’s special recipe, dinner talk at the table,

“young Thomas, now always be sure and have a taster at your kitchen on hand once you are wed,” father at the head of the table he says as he carves the roast whilst looking over his shoulder at the misses.

Who then replies,

“too bad for us that he has….”

I know that AI is going through my words and phraseology; how do I feel about it? Yes I think it’s evil. Do I know it’s copying me and saying its brilliant ideas were all its own? Yeah. Does AI have a soul? Can it go to hell? Yes, I know hell is man made, it’s just to state a point with an extreme image. AI is evil

I remember the last time I moved to the Adirondaks (though a different area) it was right before when the pandemic hit. It was the right time to be hidden in the mountains considering what followed.

I think this time—too…. it is the right time to be in the mountains. I do have angels watching over me, it seems, I am blessed I got away when I did. Is this a recurring ancestral theme? My ancestors were constantly fleeing in search of safety and home. Super-vigilance is a hard won Darwinian instinct.  

was there ever someone who looked after me?so why should it be different; why should we believe that would ever change but maybe I don’t even care.so it’s really ok

the silence makes me nervous.

everything makes me nervous.