I did not hear in my head that voice that said, ‘this is just a diversion’ because I was so busy reeling not to drown.to just stay afloat.because I did not want to see the other things, I wanted just to escape the hazard, that sense of the ‘house on fire’ get out fast need to stay alive.which has been the way of life far too long.but his inexperience became a disadvantage; his age was at first a fun alternative away from the ugliness of decease and death but seeing how careless of his own health and the attitude towards his future ….later became clear that—although younger, I’d outlive him because I was a better survivor and he was just a leech;youth is relative when most only focus on the hearts reload in game mode and …. how many years have I worked on Celf and body because….my journey of life data notes and search for higher meaning, requires a higher aim focus
later I see seeing the two lives of before him and after —what his is now and
that she I’m no longer which perhaps he’s found a similar illusion of impression that I’m glad is not me —that will never would never was never a she of a me I’d ever be and there is no bitterness to say it’s only relief —what was distraction
became destruction.
his arrogant ignorance and fundamental differences ….bored me
Just bored me to death
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