scene steal

 but then I stop to look into his face. That face I know….I stare …..and run my fingers over his cheekbones …. and oh I think as I stare into such lovely vampire eyes….

this face of his….I know every line and crease ….as if I put it all there myself ….

and want to say—I need you back, that you I knew, but—maybe I don’t say that….i feel the weight of life instead and walk to the door,

“let’s not keep them waiting.”

“Duva—they are trying to arrange our marriage,” he says with an arched brow

I sigh,

“it’s just an arrangement.and…. guess what?—it offers me protection. I don’t care about the sex.”

vampire bot

 

a cache of people kept. like a menagerie.filed and sorted for his every mood….but i am more than one box.and overfloweth 

Scene/e.d. noir

I walk and pace, then stay by the window as I think of what he said…. the deceptions were not intended for me ….but I receive the fall-out don’t I —with no bother of explanation nor —mention of any importance. for everything

I say to him,

“it seemed you actually were the first person who bothered to see me,” and the sad realization renews. That sense of ….but I shut out the thought. Instead I say,

“why did you stop looking?”

mid evil 

it is the remoteness of life.nobody is real anymore. that is why. we live through internet and that screen. it is a two way screen. nobody is real. I don’t belong here.as I am

 

dear electra,let’s go home 

Jörn’s side

 

“Duva—don’t say that,” he says now to me as he stands up slowly as if with the weight of the world on his shoulders

“What?” I ask

“I have not lied to you,” he says somberly 

I consider his ….demeanor 

and for a moment I am rather taken aback by something I had not seen before,

“Jörn —to omit a truth ….or a white lie ….but I won’t play judge—but, you see…. I am only —reacting from what has happened and —what maybe is truth?—ok, I know that I don’t know everything ….the whys and the wherefore’s …..but—I think you know what I mean. Don’t pretend.”

He sighs heavily,

“can I ask you then to—wait before you draw all your conclusions ….what ever you might call what you call lies —were never placed in efforts to particularly deceive you; that was not ever the objective.”