gosh, the places I have wandered to, my solitary pilgrimage.my solitude ….do you follow me 

 all these years, it has been my diary by my side ….this one I write ….my dictionary with codes to things that matter to me and somehow matter too to more beyond my own celves 

my diary; my only constant all these years though publicly I write

on the dharma path …. you have been my dearest friend 

I would be invisible without you and thus would not even exist ….do you still see me

the best place to hide a spy…. is in the theatre 

and be sure to keep it well tended

don’t let the weeds overtake it; keep out the invasive species 

…..and always know your true north 

the only safety is to stay challenged to your path

 it is so easy to mistake comfortable as safe.until you find yourself buried under what if’s.then it chokes your lungs

more endless thoughts

 Of all things to forget to mention about Uncle Marvin—the one who lived out his days in Tuscany with the pool that was filled with spring water —so, how he met Helena Rubinstein was because —he was an entertainer on the cruise ship she —either owned or….well, I forget the details but, alas, the point is: he also loved the stage so…. 

Our dear mysterious ancestor trapeze artist from Warsaw of whom we don’t even know her name, poor thing ….but she left such a mark on us all. 

We are all of us so high spirited ….or were. As I am the last. My Persephone is ….yes, every bit the wild high spirited artist but she is not of the revolution. Whatever her name was. I guess the flaming stamp of the other (Hades) line pressed harder in some ways upon my line rendering it nearly invisible on Persephone 

Still, wonder what she was like— twelve children had to be time consuming and exhausting with no time for any art…. was her family from some other place before her —and what family did she run away from and why; rags or riches….was Manny worth running away with, I wonder ….did her family back there ever know what became of her in America? I never heard anyone ever mention any ties to —the Old Country; that is, I don’t remember them mentioning but I would have been too young to follow their conversations  ….and isn’t that such a mystery but then —there were always the wars; theirs would have been before or around the first big one. as well as the second. so.maybe that’s why