always from the frying pan to the fire 

it is during a moment when I start to fall apart ….I think of how he has often told me he is proud of me for being strong ….and I find strength 

e.d.&id&dic

dictionary….perhaps VW suggested in A Room of One’s Own the artist’s need for creative space by giving her a room and yet it is more than just the physical space in which to write 

there must also be the freedom to think your own thoughts privately 

the constant invasion forces all glimpses of wonder 

to hide dormant lest it be trod more thoroughly upon 

E.d.&Film noir/jmmusechrontinyteaser

 And when I am brave enough to face Jörn’s living room who would I expect to give the warmest greeting?

“So nice of you to drop in and rejoin the party!”it is Elsa of course 

 so incredibly grateful to not be in so many previous places. on this holiday. that I now hate. the worst was 2017 that I spent in Oregon hiding in someone’s closet to avoid the guy living there who broke my nose.who happens to be my cousin. …. this is a better one, skål 

merci

 mor ddiolchgar am Persephone

of spies & codes

 ….and as my thoughts wander they go to him, and what I know of him is that he would never say if something were the matter.he would give the impression of having his world in control.he would not tell me.he cannot be weak;what he thinks is weak;to show it….especially to me.never.but it is what you do after you recover from your moments of weakness that are what count.but —if it is his pride, then his war is within ….and myself be silent; because, as always, I know he will emerge more powerful in his contrition.yet,id never waver

 Ik verlang naar huis