today’s progress

removed other ships, then filled in the ocean to make perspective make better sense—shoreline foam by sand will be added when I start the green hues (the planned finer details mentioned will occur down the road; laying out the field)

I am the waves when I paint the water; I flow and move inside the currents. I want to be the water, and flow on and on, and move upon the waves and crash upon the shore 

that is what I feel
 when I paint this and what I feel when I look into the water —is this why I paint water so much ….i don’t know, it is more the magic of the scrying that is the actual destination 

would you like to know my thoughts ….? They are not like ordinary thoughts at all but they are much happier than the other things out there 

yes, I’ve changed this

there will be detail added to this section

 

modern Dutch master still life idea

I want to do a still life of cabbage roses and need to find how to find a seller. I need an excuse to have fresh flowers all the time 

 

a space of one’s own

that it should have taken so long to find my way back to ….me which only comes when I can lose myself in who I really am; an artist ….i do my best thinking when I paint 

it is a peace that is mine and only mine and where I belong utterly; the world is irrelevant to me 

you can be lonely in a crowded room. I have been. Often. you can be lonely sitting next to your own family or husband 

I’m never lonely when I paint ….

it isn’t that I do not wish for company; not invasion, which seems an oxymoron 

     I think the key is …. just an ability to 

know how not to trip a wire —if the entry door seems shut but to know the elven word for friend also helps to anyone who wouldn’t trespass. 

to have a Room of One’s Own— like Virginia said ….the “room” for me is more like —having—room …. to be me ….there in that concept of “room” all restrictions go

that is the place and moment that I Create in—it is a completely separate world and I love being there —but it is a luxury (violent husband; escaping stalkers, exes etc)  —clearly, as it’s taken till now to achieve it ….why would I invite disaster now?

working on the massive ocean system; dark blues

finally back in the groove, and hitting the areas I’ve ached to work on—see how much more detail I can do over with six feet of canvas—

 

working out the nuances of the pallet

sometimes this is the best way to test and document

…. now for color mixing madness, I’ll update here

 

a quick note

 Just arrived, perfect timing; crazy week closing up shop for the summer….and the weekend 

Obviously the model “muse” I worked from 

(above as Skorpa; Swedish actor Jonas Malmsjö, inspiration for Jörn)

Can do so much more in detail with oils which —will take forever …. gladly; what a muse