terrors & goddess mantras 

over and over and over …. who do you think you are? but reality is subjective comes my reply …. who am I? what am I ….. 

I am me and I am mine, on into etcetera, I am me and I am mine —I am electra 

ydy, mae'r olygfa honno'n mynd yn y gyfres.  sut ydych chi bob amser yn darllen fy meddwl?

ceiling thoughts after midnight

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I look tall from far away because I have extra long legs. So it must be a shock to arrive in front of me and think you are in Wonderland. I’m actually just all legs 

I tend to forget my relation to large scale things until actually faced with formidable things like oversized furniture. Ladders. Trucks 

but I am the exact height I was when I was eleven. 

when my daughter was in middle school, I went there for a meeting and I kept being mistaken for a student. no, really, it’s embarrassing —so I try not to walk by clusters of middle schoolers as a general rule

 ond yna .... beth ydw i'n ei wybod?

 pwy ydw i beth bynnag

more e.d. ramblings 

there are some things I could never say in the blog. either it is because these things cannot be said in words by me or because there seemed no way to write it as if it is a diary …. 

like our Viking’s backstory —I know his story but it was just not meant to be put in my blog. I don’t blame you to wonder did I make it up? No. It was all there as soon as I stumbled across him in my dreams …. I have only found out recently that most people don’t seem to dream the kinds of dreams I have which —I didn’t know (saga dreams? fully illustrated immersive children book dreams? no? is it a wild imagination?)

….and as well—it is not possible to explain why I say it should be Oedipus’ dictionary, nor why when I say he is the mirror. It would be much easier to say this in a scene with him dressed like Greta that relied heavily on provocative suggestion but not to sexually exploit as there would be another reason to do this scene which —if you really paid attention you would notice I have skirted the crux of the issue of the neurosis and because of its very awkward nature to the author it’s always made sense to do it in a scene with no dialogue 

e.d. note:

 

That scene at the piano when he hears her playing

so maybe season 1 should end the moment he realizes she’s playing the notes of the code

footnote & asides, hashing thoughts of….

(more passing thoughts of….)

there’s too much for thirteen episodes. so much would be cut. so, it occurs to me between 2019 till 2021 is more like three seasons. so a trilogy of ‘the safe’? three levels of divine comedy….so I guess, then ‘the Will’ I’ve begun would actually begin fourth season ….but actually, this way, would allow the story telling not to be rushed and would give more time to build the symbols and develop characters with more opportunities to experiment with mood and imagery and allow the possibility for the body of work to become its own identity