a quick note

 Just arrived, perfect timing; crazy week closing up shop for the summer….and the weekend 

Obviously the model “muse” I worked from 

(above as Skorpa; Swedish actor Jonas Malmsjö, inspiration for Jörn)

Can do so much more in detail with oils which —will take forever …. gladly; what a muse 

                     what thrills of possibilities they evoke; aren’t they beautiful?

 

now ready for oils; the Vampire and the Dove

 

threading created unplanned texture 

color matching

blending to hide the damage repair and prepare for covering the canvases in oil painting which was planned work on the detail and shading 

And now ready for oils

 

beach and cruise art party

Today there is to be a party, it is for business but they seem to pretend it’s for social fun. They really just want the excuse to show off their new toys; or paintings; or trophy chicks or the latest of tech/$$$. I have been now to three of these and they’re exhausting. Walking in heels on Davi’s floor doesn’t help. 

What I like about these events I guess is the internal remarks I tell myself and some good material of how the super wealthy throw out money. I’d cry if I didn’t feel so numb. That vacation I have meant to go on? It’s starting to feel necessary; this is an old act I have done ’the hostess’—my mother’s world(and my professional past in management, running events) ; it kicks in and I start finding myself ‘working the room’ as she called it as if I never forgot how ….”you’re from where? How exciting! How do you like it here? —me? I’m from everywhere ! —let me freshen up your drink—more ice?” 

I can find the equilibrium but it feels further and further away from ….all the things that are me, but it seems everyone likes this her so much—this me is dissolving in them and should I not care?I don’t care. Can I be happy with this? I guess money solves everything. 

August nights