but I can’t laugh about it. instead i choose to not feel
Thoughts of the Legend: Electra’s dictionary
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02 April 2025
01 April 2025
Kerouac tequilla
I was recently asked to give favors for money; make favors for pay. It was so weird. I was standing on line waiting to pay. Then the question.
You think maybe he’s on his phone. He’s not talking to me.
There was another person next and the last person walked away. I moved up. Well, the guy moved behind me. He stood closer than he should. I stepped up. I looked at something as if for excuse not to be near him. Then a shove and he said it again in my ear
After my past I’m not shocked anymore so I pretended not to hear. I went up and paid and then hurried out. So it was walking home that I got that feeling, you know? But anyway, I just kept on going
I got to the corner I looked behind me and noticed there was cop car behind me
bran
within the darkness of brooding thoughts he calls
“All these years you have felt so alone, and it kills me you believe that —all your mystery blog hits Beth—were me, I think about you all the time…”
He says,
“I’ve not forgotten. I’ve been watching the calendar. I think it’ll be all right. Just call if you need me.”
that he remembers —is more than anyone else ever did
the hours of silence here is madness so I call out of desperation for just a warm familiar voice that once ….provided comfort
31 March 2025
details for the pages
my conscience requires I unburden my soul
might as well; here goes—why do I call it the bait and switch move—because it is what happened. Not until everything was already in motion, no—I mean on the porch that very day …. it was only meant I was to be there as a friend. knowing me the way you do, do you think I’d ever admit what happened out loud?
I was not even remotely vaguely attracted to him but it was insanely too late